Gf pregnant but cant stop thinking about my ex, ive made a mistake?

wow. your life sounds like a movie. lying is the biggest problem here. and the drinking and drugs too made it worse. i feel really bad for you. i would say do everything to try to get her back but you reallllly ****** up. a lot. i really dont know what you should do. i wish she could see this, because it seems really honest. i mean it would if someone else showed her, but if you showed her she'd probably think it was just an act. if she took you back all those times she has to care a lot about you so im sure she misses you like you miss her. but if you do somehow get her back, which i hope you do, you really cant **** up this time. no more ******* up. be good to her.